I have made a couple changes here. Some people have said that its difficult to navigate so I moved all the links onto one side.

Some people have said that they don’t like registering for websites so I am trying to make this site a little easier for those people to post things. There are three albums in the photo gallery now that anyone can upload pics too. I have had one for a while there where only users can upload but changed it too everyone. One of my moderators created one for computer wallpaper and I created one today for little cartoons. I had some people looking at the cartoons I had on my computer while I was on CQ the other day and I had forgot I had them before then. I am uploading them now but there are so many it may take a while. Whether your registered or not feel free to upload to these three albums.

Member Pictures
Wallpaper
Cartoons.

on a bus going to some career day… havent done much to my site lately so thought i would post a blog. i did make it so you couldnt post comments anonamyously… i have been getting posts for some poker sites and other gambling sites… when they do it they make a comment on every post in the blog. this is getting to be really fucking annoying. it has been ongoing for about a week now and i get an email for each comment posted. now each comment has to be approved by me. makes it more annoying for me but no one really leaves comments anyway.

i re-installed windows recently so i havent been able to upload pics or add the shit i said i was going to. my cd-rom is about dead so its hard to install my programs that i need. i should have a new computer in less than a month. have most of the money for it now but want to buy everything at once… i am building it myself so i can buy it piece by piece if i want. i installed office last night so i have word and frontpage so later i will work on making a page that will show you everything i have in my computer… cause when i am done i will have the best of the best and there wont be anyone that can come close for a while.

If you’re in a war, instead of throwing a hand grenade at the enemy, throw one of those small pumpkins. Maybe it’ll make everyone think how stupid war is, and while they are thinking, you can throw a real grenade at them.

These last couple days I have been so busy I haven’t even been able to take the time to write to my blog. I have had class, meetings with my future in-laws, grandparents with cancer, rude room-mates (yes plural), and a girlfriend that isn’t ready to get married.

Life can be confusing sometimes, and you never know which road to take until you take it and see where it takes you. I was planning on getting Married on May 28th of this year, which is about a month from now. My girlfriend has other concerns. I have met her mother several times, she has told me that she likes my personaliy, says I am poilite, nice, handsome, respectful, everything I want her to say…., but she says I can’t marry her daughter cause I am white. This is the only reason she doesn’t like me, she was honest at least. My girlfriend asked her and her mother could not come up with another excuse, she said she liked me, but doesn’t want a white boy for a son-in-law.

Ironic, here I am white as can be from a culture that says I have no race, that I am just plain and simple. Where people get critized because they are black, asian, indian, middle eastern, anything but white…, I am not a minority until I came here. I know what it feels like now to have people stare at you and wonder what I am doing there. To have my girlfriends family dislike me cause of the color of my skin…, and I think its bull-shit.

Why me? My family is very unique. I have a colorful family even though I am white. I have a cousin that is black, I have a uncle that is jewish and living in Isreal, I have a girlfriend that is Korean, and all these people were accepted without any problems. My family doesn’t care, I wans’t raised to look at a persons skin color. So why does this have to happen to me? Maybe that is why…, maybe I thought I was too perfect and it wouldn’t be a problem. Maybe I thought that those people were accepted into my family without repricussions…, maybe its just the luck of the draw. I don’t know…, but I don’t like it…, I hate it.

The wedding is postponed until a later date. When? …not a clue. But she says no latter than early next year. Longer than I wanted to wait. Has already been 6 months since I proposed and the date we chose then has already passed. I hate waiting, I hate racism, I hate not being able to plan my wedding or my life with this girl. I think I just want things to be too perfect.

I think I have gotten to the point where this site is just too large. I am constantly having people ask me where on my site something is. Which in short means I need to make a better sitemap and make it easier to access. I moved the search bar to the top of the page on the right so people will hopefully use that in case they need too. But I still have too much I think.

There are files in the sections area which no one goes too but sure they would if they knew. There is a forum and a FAQ users can post questions too instead of asking me personally. All around I need to start working on making a sitemap for this site. The one now is a script that I don’t have to touch and is basically just the same thing in the menu’s on the sides. There are no descriptions or anything. Plus when I add something new I post it in my blog and some people only visit once a week or less so chances are the blog that has the new information in it has dropped off into the archive. I like to type too much too so I think that causes a problem.

Before I do anything else to the site I think I need to create a sitemap and re-do the links at the top of the site…, currently they are:
RazorNylon • News • Forum • Polls • Sections • Downloads • Links • FAQ • Contact
Downloads is the wrong link and the rest aren’t really that useful. Once I gain some free time I think I will work on trying to get that organized and my user friendly. Some people can find things ok, but usually those people have extensive computer knowledge. My room mate is far from that and asks me the dumbest questions all the time. At least he is giving me an idea as to what I need to do while creating a sitemap. Hopefully this is something I will be able to do in the next couple days. I just did a complete format and install for windows so have nothing on here to create something like that quickly and easily. Once I get that done it shouldn’t be any problem to get this done.