Last night I wrote a blog about the usual. However today I got reprimanded for it. I stated my financial problems and mentioned that I want to get rid of my car. Its a 2007 that I just bought, the 2008’s are starting to come out and I have some negative equity from the Mazda that I wrecked.

I have full coverage, a $0 deductible and Gap coverage. If the car is totaled then the insurance will cover 100% of the vehicle. If I sell it I still owe $6,000-$8,000. That is a car payment. So if I sell my car, I still have a car payment and no car. Doesn’t make much sense to me. Totaled, then there is no car and no car payment. However to total my car would mean that I would have to risk my life. As much as I want to be rid of my car, I don’t want to kill myself. I may sound stressed and give someone the impression that I am at wits end, but I guarantee you I am not suicidal.

I come home every day to this beautiful little girl who runs up to me and clings on my leg with excitement to see her daddy. I don’t care what kind of day I have had. When I pick her up and see her smiling from ear to ear just from the site of me, I have forgotten all of my problems.

There are days where I may hate my life, but I love my daughter and care for her life more than my own.