Just a quick note in response to an e-mail I got.  I haven’t updated the blog cause I have been busy.  Everything is going so-so to fine.  I have about 5 posts that are half written and hope to post them soon.

Thanks for the e-mails, I will update soon.

I’m tired, feel like crap, and can’t hear.

For dinner I picked Taco Bell.  Went through the drive through, ordered, handed them my card, they handed me my drink, then gave me my reciept and card back, then I left.  After a minute or so down the road when I felt it was safe enough to eat, I reached over and couldn’t find my food.  I quickly thought about it then realized that I forgot it.  A quick debate led me to understand I had to buck up and face them despite how embarresing it may be.

I turned around and headed back, grabbed my reciept and walked into the restaurant.  Not a single soul in the place.  No customers at the tables, no one in line, nothing, just me.  The drive through attendant saw me and pointed, followed by an uproar of laughter.  I walk up to the counter, put my reciept down, she tells me I don’t need it and grabs a bag then fufills my order, tossing in a free order of cinnamon twists.  I try to explain its been a long day but she pays not attention as she is still slightly laughing.  Letting out a long sigh and not feeling as embarresed as I expected, trying to laugh along with them I didn’t want to stay around any longer than I had too.

This just goes to show I have yet to get my head on straight, and need to hurry up and do so.

I think I can blame the way I feel primarily on being under the weather, since I know I have a fever with this ear infection.  Which this only seems to amplify everything.

I called the PA DMV, they suspended my license on 8/8/08.  Aparently my incompitance is still catching up with me.  I got a speeding ticket in NY and after arguing it I got a list of demands from them that was completely unrealistic.  Submit a letter explaining my defense, my driving record from PA, two other forms I have never heard of, and a deadline of a week.  Just send me to court!  I laughed set it too the side, assumed that since I had a PA license and this happened in NY it would be unlikely that they would be able to do anything effective.  I also noticed that the speeding ticket stated that they caught me with radar, and my $450 radar detector didn’t pick up any radar that day.  Then moving to California, I thought “why bother”.

Times have changed, computers control the world.  States are talking to each other now, and it SUCKS!  Something else that I did, which could of been prevented.  I remember the day well.  Me and my wife were late for a Dr’s appointment for my daughter so I was trying to gain time by speeding.  I turned up the radar detector and floored it.  I guess when you are going significantly faster than everyone else its pretty obvious.

PA is now sending me a letter with instructions of how to fix everything, but until it is all fixed I have no drivers license.  Which makes me exceptionally nervous since I live in my car and get ID’d every couple nights.  Not only is my license suspended it obviously states that it is expired on it.  As well as having expired tags on my car, I have a bad feeling that its only a matter of time before it catches up with me.  But, what other choices do I have?  I earn about $400 a week (If I am lucky, $300 is from NYS unemployment).

The cheapest I have seen any time of living accomidations is a room in someone’s house for $600 a month.  Which is 50% of my monthly income.  Not leaving me much else.  A studio apartment starts at around $800 a month and a one bedroom apartment starts around $1,000 a month.  Personally I want something large enough for my wife and daughter to feel comfortable in as well and hope they may move back in eventually.  Begger’s can’t be choosers…, right now I am stuck living in my car.

I think that because of all this ordeal with my license if I do get in trouble, they will tow my car, give me a heavy ticket and possibly charge me.  If this happens I see no other choice but to go and apply for some government assistance such as wel-fare.  I just hope that the police understand this and have a heart as well as giving me the respect that I haven’t done this and am trying to deny any handouts.  Afterall it is their tax money I would be stealing.

I just hope it doesn’t come to this and my break comes soon so I can start working and begin my new life.

I have had an ear infection for a couple days now and have “Googled” and “WebMD’d” as much information on the cause as possible.  I have reason to believe that I have swimmer’s ear.  A day or two before I got the infection I was taking a shower and intentionally put my ear in the stream of water as I had an itch and have always had a re-occuring problem with wax build up in my ear and this had never been a problem before.  Its a quick simple answer to cleaning some extra wax out of my ear.

Stupid!

My inner ear is swollen, and the part of my cheak just in front of the ear is tender.  I feel like I have a fever but its hard to be sure as I don’t have a thermometer.  On my birthday I checked it while visit my wife, which it was 100.5 then.  Now I believe it has gotten worse and spread to the other ear.

I have purchased about $20 worth of OTC drugs to try and treat it myself.  My wife keeps telling me to go to the V.A. clinic which I dread.  I think part of me is that they will turn me away, as I do remember that I had a physical to determine what physical disabilities I have developed because of the Army.  Ears isn’t on my list.  This is another assumption and I will only know if I go there, but part of me also doesn’t want to get off the computer drive 20 minutes and wait for 3 hours to say “keep doing what you are doing”.  Again another assumption and as of lately I haven’t been right on too many things.

Currently I am using this swimmer’s ear drops and cotton balls.  Which it seems to help relieve some of the pain and itching, but after I take the cotton balls out my ears seem to pop alot, which make it incredibly hard to hear with or without the cotton.

Yesterday was an incredible day.  Which today…., of course everything decided to balance itself out.  Which in writing this now I have also realized that the date is the 13th.

I woke up this morning to find a parking ticket on my car.  As I figured I might but the alternative nearby spots had signs for towing the car.  I parked on the street which has a time limit until 7:30am.  Finally sleeping in a bed after several weeks in the car I slept like a baby and easily slept in.  I woke up at around 8:30, and left the house at 9.  The ticket was timestamped at 8:40.  I guess I should read into it that much.

I get around and go to the gym to take my shower and everything else.  While I am in the shower a 3-4 year old boy pulls open the curtain to poke his head in to ask what I am doing.  Probably the last thing I was expecting in a gym.  Then came the 20 questions, all starting with “why”.

“Why are you taking a shower?”
“Why don’ you take a shower at home?”
“Why, Why, WHY!!”

From my understanding the “Kids zone” which is a short term day care facility in the gym while parents are able to work out were watching him and he needed to go to the bathroom and they just let him go alone.  Its safe to say that they won’t be watching my kids anytime soon.

After the gym I ran to the DMV to renew my driver’s license.  They did all the paperwork and everything needed and then handed me a notice explaining that the state of PA has suspended my license.  They can’t give me any further information.  My license expires today so even after today it doesn’t even look legit.  They give me a number to call and I found out nothing more than it is suspended and due to the time difference its after 5pm in PA so there is no one to talk to.  I can only assume that at this point is they canceled it cause I tried to renew it after business hours in PA.

After going back home, (my parking lot), I download my e-mail and other daily checks that I do online.  One thing I noticed was that the cache I thought was a clever hide was not only found, but was found in the dark, and has been found by three people so far.  One explaining that they would of camoflauged it better.  I thought that I didn’t need to considering it was in a hole in the end of a tree branch, completely out of sight.

I sent my wife a text explaining about my day, and sit back and try to find something to pass the time and wish this day to an end.  Which came after my wife called me to give the ever famous “I told you so” speach, complaining about how I always wait until the last minute and to see where it gets me.  It’s not that she does the whole “I told you so” bit, its the fact that I keep giving her the oppurtunity that agravates me most.