I can sit here all day staring at this computer screen writing about my life, my struggles, my bad luck, or just re-iterating the thoughts that come through that most people keep to themselves.  I have no issues posting that on my blog.  When it comes to telling someone face to face…, it starts to get uncomfortable.  Asking me to get up in front of the class and tell me story?  That’s a hell NO!  (Meeting people that already know, that’s easy I don’t have to deal with them pre-judging me after hearing the first half or drawing their own conclusions).

I am taking a business communication class and the professor has given us an assignment to write an essay that could be used to sell myself to an employer.  An event from my life?  I could come up with 100 stories that would grab anyone’s attention.  Something that can be used as a motivation tool for others…?  Um…. we might have a little more of a problem with that.  Then you want me to present it in front of the class?  Yeah right!

This professor kept going on, and prying into different things in my life trying to get something and every single one I shot down in a heart beat.

Do you have a job?
No.
How do you live?
I have a website.
Interesting, tell me about the website.
I profit off of U.S. Army soldiers who are trying to cheat on test exams.
…huh…

Then I showed her a clip from CNN, expressing that these sites aren’t something I really want to brag about.  Then she saw my wedding ring.  Again, shot down!  I am getting divorced cause my wife thinks that we rushed into marriage and wants to go back to “just dating”.

…huh…

Needless to say I don’t think I am going to be able to sit in the back of the class anymore and be quiet.  Later during the break she pointed at me took a second and said my name…, ah the start of another day in my drama of a life.

A normal person would be sitting in the corner holding a straight razor to their wrist, contemplating the value of life.  I blog about it, tuck and roll, then laugh it off.  Maybe that can be my angle?

My webcam isn’t working (some stupid issue I hope to resolve tonight with Vista), but in order to answer your question in as few words as possible this post is for you. Everyone else, the question was:

“What have I been up too for the last ten years?”

This is in chronological order…,

• Quit high school, twice
• Started college, dropped out
• Moved to Pennsylvania
• Got my G.E.D.
• Joined the Army
• Deployed to Korea
• Met a girl
• Got Married (Korean national, her name is Dohee)
• Had a baby (little girl her name is Hanna)
• Rappelled off a 120′ communications tower, Got in trouble for it.
• Re-stationed at Fort Campbell, KY
• Made the front page of the Boston Globe & Army Times over a web site
• Got out of the Army
• Moved back home to NY
• Got in a fight with my wife, she got on a plane to California to live with her mom
• Packed up everything, drove across the country to California
• Was homeless living out of my car
• Started college again (my fifth college)
• Offered a place to stay for free by a 70 year old retired gay man who lives alone
• Wrote a blog post about the last ten years

Still patching things up with my wife, but it looks promising.  I am hoping to start going to Berkeley in a year or so, still have to make the exact schedule with the school counselor.

Things are good…, anything but boring!  I think I covered the basic subjects, how about you?

Obama Win Causes Obsessive Supporters To Realize How Empty Their Lives Are

Here is a quick update on how things are going.  As I can see from a recent comment things might be getting a little strewed.

I am not living with my wife, however things are going much better.  I think after I wrote the post, claiming that I was throwing in the towel I ignored my wife for a week and she read the post made her a little more interested in me.  So things between us have been going much better.  I am no longer living in my car, I am staying with a friend that I met shortly after I arrived here.  I coinidently parked my car behind his house in a supermarket parking lot and he was kind enough to knock on my window.  After a couple months of talking and me continuing to refuse his offer I swallowed my pride and he has offered me a place to stay.

I do see my wife quite often, sometimes though I can go several days, as both of our schedules conflict.  Her mother is in the process of investing in a new business which will be her primary income after she moves to the U.S..  This is making things there very stressful and busy, so I do not get to see my wife or daughter as much as I would like.

I am healthy, alive, and still in college.  Although I am unemployed I am still looking and earn enough to be able to pay for the few things that I do have.  (Car, phone)  Its been busy so its hard to sit down and write a blog as often as I would like, but my twitter does give a brief summary of what is going on and assures you I am still alive.

I went through and re-designed RazorNylon.com which has a forum.  It may be better to ask questions in there, as it will give a better medium to keep an ongoing discussion.  If the conversation becomes too involved I can also move the topic to a private forum in which only those whom I wish can view.

I will try to give better updates and blog more often.  But its a little low on my list of priorities.  Maybe it will be easier after I straighten some things out and get a little better organized.